December 5, 2017 One of the most difficult things I have going on for myself is my inability to think into the future. Not literally, but I generally lack the ability to express desires that are more concrete to myself if they exist more than a few days out. I think this is a negative aspect of my personality. I’m too watery. Instead of forging a concrete world around myself, I continually wash up on the shore of reality, accreting over time. With that in mind, one of the things I do need to get better at is creating goals. I’ve accomplished a lot recently, but I feel like I was only 20 or 30 percent effective where I could have been far more. Hopefully this will be something I revisit from time to time, reassessing productivity and goals throughout the year until I can see myself at 60 percent or more productivity. Potential goals: Develop a system for bringing Dota to the Pathfinder system. Develop a spiritual successor to Plants vs Zombies. Implement a neural network tool and visualizer for a language like Erlang with lightweight threads. Develop some sort of other compelling PC game. Start teaching programming on Twitch. Concrete goals: Finish various projects at home. Necessary before we can move. Computer desk Back hallway Bathroom Kitchen Basement TLC Windows Refinish children’s rooms Side and paint shed Replace shed doors Continue to stretch/exercise against back arthritis. Visit the gym at least once each week, but preferably twice a week on average. Continue writing at least one page a day. Abstract goals: Grow this audience! Get at least 5 people checking back here once per week. Create something with consistent value. Assist might be this. Not sure. Very low cost per user. Much of my inability revolves around mental health problems. Either a lack of confidence, or a lack of will/desire. I’m hoping to cultivate a garden of productive mechanisms for each of these things that I can draw from when necessary. My biggest enemy seems to be a lack of discipline. When I’m writing, I tend to think as though I’m writing for an audience, which seems to help me cultivate some discipline.